You know it. You dear diary, you know that all I have is my job. IS IT ALL I HAVE TO SEE THEM!!! If I don't have a job, and they don't have money, how am'I gonna be able to see them! Does she understands that?! Does she knows I never screamed like that in my entire life! Does she know all I wanted to say is that if she was to take away my job I'd be leaving? Does she knows it was the lowest thing she could have ever told me? Does she knows I can't talk to her when something bugs me because I fear she'll act exactly like that? Does she knows she broke me...? I never screamed. Ever before. Not like that. It was like someone had stabbed me over. and over. and over. Every time I would think about not seeing them, it was another stabbing - deeper, and deeper, and forever more deep. I'm shaking right now as I try to describe what it did to me. I don't know if she cares. I don't know if she meant it. I don't even know if I care to know. I think that for me it's done, and I won't be able to forget that. I haven't talked to her since yesterday around 7. And I don't want to. I don't want to have to face her. I know it's not a big case anymore, but that was a cheap shot, and even if she says I'm a brat, I'm a spoiled princess, and all she wants to call me, I know she means it. Even Katie as never done this much to me. Maybe I am being spoiled, maybe I am being a brat, but I DON't CARE! I don't give a fuck when you come back at me and tell me what you told me. ...It hurts soo much... Do you think she understands???